Weeklong saga....

Its 2:30am at nite & I m not yet sleepy…felt like penning down my blog as my frnds want me to...watched filmfare awards in evng & then 'Rendezvous wid Simi Garewal'..
Haven't posted nething for long…so here it is a wklong saga..presented 2 u by one & only urs truly…last wkend this time I was in Chennai…I think I was applying mehndi at this hour…before dat arnd 12:30am last sat. went for a 2mins drive on 500cc Royal Enfield on kamyaa's cousin Senthil's bike..all frds were taking turns to sit behind Senthil to enjoi that…& I said- "Senthil, I wanna sit at ur back & wanna ride too"…500cc engine...power is more than half of 800cc maruti...it touches 80km/hr in secs…wow…it was really exciting to be there on it for 2mins…I wudn't hav minded more also…I luv wild adventures & trying smthing like this is fun…
Afternoon last sat was spent at Mahabalipuram…I stayed at kamyaa's house..Kamyaa's parents were saying that u take great care of our daughter in Bangalore…v r highly impressed with ur caring nature…she is learning a lot frm u…Urs truly was all shy hearing this self-praise…
So, v were talking abt my trip…v reachd chennai in morning…stayed at kamyaa's place then got ready & went to meet abi…frm there straight to Mahabalipuram…went to Shore temple, Five rathas, Shiva temple…& then kovalam beach…it’s a nice place to hang arnd wid ur luvd one..;-)…I really luv & appreciate mobile communication…as I ws able to update ppl I m close to abt my trip thru sms & phn calls….
Nxt morning, ya u got it rite, last Sunday, abi's marriage was at 9am…abi was really happy that I came to Chennai for her marriage…there were so many emotions in her eyes…I ws thinking hw few ceremonies cud tie two ppl into lifelong relationship…marriage is so sacred…
V spent afternoon in shopping, I bought a silk saree for my mom….

Then, my cousin was here frm wed to fri for sm interview…I took him to forum, kempfort, v were literally kids, roaming arnd, trying new dishes & had lots of ice-cream on all three days…

Today was alone at home in the evening, did sm drawing…then one of my old frnd Sid called up in the eveng…I talked to him for half an hour…it was superb talking to him…
...as I kept the phn ..my other frnd called up…I had tried calling him in eveng…his phn was busy…so I dropped an sms…it was refreshing talking to him...its great that now he understands relationships move when both the ppl who r part of relationship take initiative…:-)
Its 3:01am acc to my lappy….. Sur slept arnd half an hour, sm songs r playing….& mez sleepy too….one more follow-up post on the way…I will write it in morning…

Its 2:30pm in the afternoon, & here is the follow-up part…Sid is an old school frnd of mine, haven't met him since class 12th…he is a cool fellow...xtremely direct…he said he was reading my blog…he liked the post in which I wrote wat I did for my parents for their 25th anniversary…he wz saying "Yaar, all these things which u did, usually guys r supposed to do…" I said-"Don't say all this yaar, there is no difference between guys & gals these days…I did wat I felt like doing for ppl I luv…don’t praise me so much..."
…v talked for half an hr…he has an elder bro, brother has gone abroad on sm official trip for few months…his brother is not planning to get married & sid luvs arpita a lot…he said I m telling bhai to get married soon so that my chance shud cum…but dushyant bhaiya has no plans yet…best part is that sid's parents ask him to look for a girl frm matrimonial site for his bro…sid was laughing & said - "I don’t understand this concept of marrying smone by going thru a website…its weird…v r not selecting sm commodity or item for purchase…v r looking for a life partner…these sites have spoilt the whole purpose of marrying smone who cares for u or likes u…marriage is wen u have to live wid smone for 25-30 yrs of ur life…it is tuf decision to make…then obvious choice shud b smone who understands u in & out & likes u the way u r…cares for u…this matrimony site makes marriage an stale concept…nature arnd us is full of spontaneity, thots abt marriage shud b spontaneous too…one shud feel frm inside that this is the one I wanna get married…wen a person goes on sm site...they restrict them so much by putting filters like person shud be of so & so caste..shud be between this age….& blah-blah…then v make choices out of that search result…v belong to 21st century.. v shud think beyond caste, religion, age…v take so many decisions daily like where v wanna go, whom v wanna meet, where v want to do job…wen v can decide all this..why cant v select wid whom v wanna spend our lives...hearts shud b connected…ppl have stopped looking arnd them for smone & go to these sites..its strange…arpita understands me so well, my moods, my preferences…and biggest thing is that she is there wid me not evn in my gud times but always by my side in bad times too…that defines devotion of a person towards u in a relation..."

I was teasing him, so wen r u getting married to arpita…he said, "Yaar, I m already living a married man's life, wen I hav not looked for any other woman for two years now...". Arpita lives in Ghaziabad & Sid is in Baroda for two years now….but was telling frm far also she takes so much care abt him…calls him up to ask wat is he doing, had food or not, chats over the msgr…he said, "I don’t think v can at this age marry just anyone, v shud feel happy wid smone's presence.."

I said that both of u r frm different caste…wont it be a problem for ur marriage…he said that one shud hav confidence in themselves & in the person they luv…after all it’s a question abt our lives…v cant compromise on this thing & regret later that v hurt smone who luvs us so much…if v r confident that v wanna spend life wid this person, others will respect our decision…if not today then tmrw…no one can force u to get married to smone, v shud feel it frm inside that this girl cares so much for me, I want this girl only in my life ..nobody else wil do now…if v hav this confidence...evrything gets in place wid time…

I think its delicate but things do get fine…if v think v cant convey this to our parents, v shud leave it on our partner or their parents, smone who can convey this politely to our parents…smtimes v think v cant handle this inter-caste thing, but v shudnt think that its impossible…so many ppl take this decision daily & v can also b strong enuf to face world for the choices v make.. If v cant make our parents agree, smone else can do it in suave manner, may b the person v like is wise enuf to think abt way how v can make parents agree to it or their parents or any of our close relatives, frnd, anyone can show us the way...but biggest thing is our confidence in smone v like…

He was telling that sm new ppl hav joined his office recently so there is lot of team-building going on…;-) he was telling there r many guys in team who like sm girl, they can do all big things in life but dnt hav courage, due to social reasons, to accept in frnt of that girl that they like her …he was telling, "I tell them that this frequency match happens rarely…wen u get to knw that other person understands me & my mood so well & is really understanding…at this point just go for it…don’t think wat world will think…bcoz world doesn’t comes to u wen u r feeling down or wen u need smone by ur side…but this person was there always for u in ur bad times…so go & hold the hand...before smone else takes up initiative & marrys that person..."
Ciao,
Sonal
ps: …Talking to Sid is always a great experience…one shud talk to him over the phn to knw that..i m doing that for past few yrs...havent met him personally for several yrs…he is such an optimist person & knws wat he wants in life…he believes in simple pleasures of life like me..

…he motivates that one shud never compromise on certain things in life…it reflects hw strong u r as a person…smtimes u hav to stand against ur own family for sm things, but u r not doing nething against them, if the person u like is nice, they wil also luv & accept him/her…its just takes little time…but its possible...

Sorry Sid! such motivating thots that I cant stop myself frm sharing it here wid others...hope u dnt mind it..!!

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Ciao,
Sonal

KKHH...

Its 11:32pm, talked to my friend in evening…he dint replied to my sms…if I don’t get his replies I get to knw that he is in bad mood & needs me…Oh god! wen he will grow up & take initiative to respond…everytime I only take step…smone plz tell him relationships are not maintained like this…u hav to giv attention to smone who cares for u…else it will break if I get angry… rarely but I do get angry, and then handling is problem ;-)
Anyway, it was fun talking to him…I told him how the married couples were leaving early frm office…I remember how Vijay was planning to leave early today…he ran to catch the 4:15 bus, but missed it…both me & Deb were laughing when he was going at 5:30pm…Deb gave him the lift in his car…but v singles were sitting & working in office..:-(

Made excellent tomato chatni along wid food for dinner today…Sur teases me…ur hubby will never fight wid u….first thing u understand feelings of others, mix so well with everyone in all ages, don’t hurt anyone, don’t get angry or shout & on top of that make excellent food…whether its veg or non-veg…she says: 'one who will marry u will be very lucky...let him meet me…I will tell all ur qualities to him..' ..it sounds so funny to make smone understand how good u r for marrying him,…wen the person shud realize it on his own…I m not going to do this, even he has to take sm initiative to knw me… ;-)

Since I have kept the phone, I m watching 'Kuch Kuch Hota Hai'…it’s a great movie…Superb portrayal of relationships...especially friendship…Shahrukh & Kajol have been shown on silver screen as 'best friends'..in one scene Shahrukh & Kajol cum running towards each other…& before kajol cud say anything ...Shahrukh tells he luvs Rani & so Kajol goes away frm them…it was raining & Kajol was crying…so shahrukh cant understand she is crying….its painful...
wen rani dies & they meet again…Kajol says I dint knew rani has died...Shahrukh tells Kajol, where were u wen she died...my best friend was not there wen I needed…

Excellent portrayal of how much a friend can give up for the happiness of the other friend…so much that they can hide & sacrifice their own love for the friend…
I think no girl can b in reality as good as Kajol…
Nobody in real life shares happiness wid a friend who used to like smone else….but then I think those friends r the best to share ur life…for whom ur past life doesn’t matter…the only thing which matters for them is how u r as person…Bcoz wat is most important in life otherwise a person who luvs u without reasons...

No one can beat Shahrukh wen it comes to romantic scenes…the way he handles luv scenes is too good….the romantic scene wen Shahrukh dances wid Kajol after the rain is excellent….it was coming & just ended now…guys shud take few tips frm him on how to express themselves, smtimes I think can men b so romantic like him…? ;-) …most of them lack this :-D

In one scene Shahrukh's mom says men r weak at heart, they make rules for themselves, but they don’t realize that luv doesn't knws any bounds…women r the one who handle them wen they r in bad mood…especially if that woman is a friend and luvs him too…
…Shahrukh goes & tells Kajol that he luvs her, wen she is going to get married…wat an Idiot I tell u...why can’t men understand & reciprocate the feelings in time….why don’t they respond ? Men shud take initiative to maintain relationships… they shud take step atleast wen women take so much care abt them & cant c them in pain…

Its 1:05am in my lappy's clk, breaks r so long…movie is abt 2 end now…Salmaan said to Kajol that she has luved only one person & did everything for that person…& sends him to Shahrukh…So here, the movie ends….& so shud my post...kamyaa & sur hav slept & I m writing this post & watching TV this late after long time…I am not well, shud hav slept & I m awake for longest time...
Just now 'Rang de Basanti' trailer came, I hav not seen this movie…all my frnds went in big gang & watched it on Monday :-( ...one frnd has promised to come & watch wid me over the nxt weekend…I hope promise is kept….ELSE I WONT WATCH the movie at all now…my frnd asked me did u cooked dinner…will invite him sm weekend for lunch….
this post sounds like movie review,Sonal...never mind... :-)
this wkend I m off to Chennai for Abi's marriage…kamyaa is asking me to wear Saree, I m thinking what to do? :-)
ps: A Man should act like a Man, shud be bold & shud knw how to express their emotions…shud take initiative..
...1:53am will shut TV & go to my room…Good nite everyone…I m sleepy ;-)
Ciao,
Sonal

Express urself everyday...

Got up early in the morning. Called up my parents. Teased dad & mom in the morning that what they r gifting each other on Valentine's day...this is my fav job every valentines, to wish them & to tease them to glory...
They asked me wat plans? I said- Easy mom..No Valentine, No Plans...:-)

ps: All days shud b the one to express ur love but still if they hav made a special day for it
...A silent Valentines wish to one who exists somewhere, I know, but is nowhere near me :-)
Spread more luv.. Its felt by heart, expressed by actions, & needs no words...;-)

Smone sent me this image this morning to our college grp, worth a look...& remember there is smone who always cares silently than v do for anyone in the world...its only that v dont realize their worth...
http://weblogimages.com/static/uFP432627GH3.jpg

Party-time.....

On Friday was a get-together of our team at St. Mark's hotel. Do I c ppl getting jealous of it..? ;-)
I planned to go as I thot Neethu will come with her hubby for dinner…so I can return wid them as she stays close…but Neethu said as she is pregnant she will hav jerks while returning in auto at night for such a long distance…So, I dropped the plan after reaching office…
Wen I told my cousin abt this…he told that anyway u will get bored over the weekend alone, so u shud go & have fun…But the problem wid me was of returning home as it gets a bit lonely at nite near my house…I asked my friend on msgr abt this…he said smone going on that side will leave u…he dint even reply wat else can b done & his status was away, I got really hurt by witnessing his indifferent behavior….
Soumya, Kavya, Jyothi were asking me to come to the party for past three days…wen they heard I m not coming they called me to their desk…Jyothi said if nobody is there…she & her hubby will drive on opposite side of the city & will drop me…Sarkar said else he will take an auto & come & drop me…everyone said 'Sonal, U have to come…'So, finally they made me say Yes for coming….
Ranjan got his dad's car that day…he pinged me on msgr & said he is driving alone…so V can come along wid him to party…So, me, soumya, kavya & sarkar joined him…there was traffic in between….v were having fun amongst us, once v thot as this traffic sucks and venue is still far lets drop the plan of going to party & enter inside forum only…:-)

Party was good, many colleagues were there wid their spouses…every1 introduced others wid their spouses. Small kids were the life of the party….they were first to start dancing on the dance floor. Some of the ppl slowly dived in, I started dancing wid kids & ashwini…then came out as there were very few ppl on floor…then Ranjan pulled me to dance on 'Rang Barse bheege chunar wali…' …my PM was standing on side & she waived at me happily seeing that I took initiative of cming back & I m enjoying the party….
Few guys also dropped in…they were dancing really well…we clapped standing on side & cheered them up…then I pulled other girls also, they were saying they don’t dance much so they will follow watever steps I will take…it was fun…My mgr, Vijay's, Vikram's, Abhjeet's wives also joined…I tell u they all are lovely ladies…few years elder to me in age…but I talked & became friendly to all of them…Vijay's wife I have met earlier also…she came once to office wid Vijay on Saturday…I like her a lot…very bubbly personality & extremely opposite to Vijay who talks so less & is an introvert…they hav a intercaste luv marriage…used to work together in Vijay's prev company…;-) I found them to b the cutest couple in the party…I pulled Vijay's leg a lot...tried to drag him so much to dance but he dint come…
His wife was also saying drag him if u can….Vijjay is a very sincere person, i was threatening Vijay that u better dance here…else I will play all these songs in office & as my cube is close to urs, I will disturb u…he smiled & said if u play all these songs there, I wil dance in my cube…I was telling his wife…don’t worry if he dances v wil capture it in camcorder & mail her…;-)

Kids got so mixed wid me, I had knelt down & was dancing with Vikram's daughter at her height, she was at the centre of the circle formed by us and is just 4yr old kid…so wen I got up & started dancing wid other girls in the group she pulled my kurta to grab attention like u r my friend dance wid me…wen I knelt down & started dancing wid her again…she was all in smiles…:-)
After DJ ppl were busy in dinner, my friend was sitting in one corner dint even talk to me in the party…then later he joined others frm his team for dinner…I dint hav dinner...just had juice & two scoops of ice-cream….

I got a butterfly tattoo done on my hand…soumya captured it on her phone…posted it on the blog…:-)
After dinner ppl started leaving…V were amongst the last to leave…Many ppl came & asked me whether smone is dropping u or not…but felt really bad wen my frnd dint even bothered to ask me...my mgr had assured me that if nobody gives u company while returning…I wil drop u…she kept her promise…she came down to leave me at nite…on the way to home she, her hubby Sanjay & me shared nice laugh…

ps: It was a cool party…enjoyed it a lot…I danced like crazy same as many other dance parties….thx to my cousin for motivating me to go…& kavya, soumya, ranjan & jyothi for pulling me there… :-)

Social Service...;-)

Let me pen few things abt this sign…so that u don’t do a mistake of leaving her…if she is the luv of ur life…social service this festive season ;-)
A virgo is smone who is neat, dresses well, carry herself well, disciplined for the ppl in the outside world…but she can be very different if u get to knw her closely & live wid her…the best way to knw her is by talking to her…a very straight fwd person...

…lets start with negative side, she is very direct & criticizes to the point, so if she is hurt bcoz u dint do wat u were expected to do, she will tell u directly, this has one positive side though, that virgo will never hide things & there wont b misunderstandings due to lack of communication…so if u r one of those introvert ppl arnd, virgo will b rite choice for u as u need one person to be open & direct in relation...

…if she luvs u she will tell u, if she is angry she will fight wid u for 5 mins & then nxt min wil start feeling bad for it for days until u let her knw its ok she can fight as she luvs u…she wil always be the first one to patch up…never takes relationships for granted...a very controlled person...she is one who can take any pains in the world for sm1 she loves…she can do anything for those who luv her…she finds pleasure in finding pleasure for ppl she cares.

...can go wid u for adventurous tracking outing, may cheer up loud while watching a cricket match wid u, or fall on ur shoulder wen watching a movie…may get hold of ur handycam & start shooting a film on u in her funny ways…can guide u the way as she has nice sense of direction…or may loose the way if saw u coming... ;-)
...can keep track of money…not an extravagant person…spends cautiously, expends lavishly only for sm1 she luvs…so at times will surprise u wid sm cute gifts…she is bubbly…respects ppl & makes them laugh…very popular in public...as popular in ppl elder to her age, as to sm1 younger…meticulous at whatever she does…in one person u will get an affectionate friend, lovable critic, caring nurse, romantic spouse…

If u hav crush on a Virgo & she is not responding believe me, she knows that she is not compatible wid u...If she says she luvs u, she wud hav scratched her head…more than u can think...probably she has foreseen sm gr8 years of her life with u...bcoz until she is sure that she is compatible wid u & can keep u happy believe me she won’t talk to u in this regard…bcoz for her being happy is by keeping others happy… :-)
…she is one of the most adjusting ppl arnd…can boldly handle difficult times…& can fight wid world for u…can balance family & work…wil take care of everything related to u…analyze u well…she may criticize u for what u did u wrong bcoz she wants gud for u…

….if she takes interest in u...call her for coffee, giv her a flower not even a bouquet reqd…send her a sweet mail or msg…call her up & talk…giv her smthing which u made with ur own hands for her…she is a person with gentle heart…& believes in small pleasures of life…not looks for a rich dumb guy who gives diamond ring or car…she is one can share wid u ur DIL & ur BILL…not the one who wants her man to spend on her…;-)

If u r lucky u will find a Virgo girl falling in luv wid u, bcoz this pure soul rarely falls in luv…she can be one of the best life partner u can ever wish for….
Current song on playlist from Bluffmaster... 'Talk to me bhool jaye saara jahan, come to me hum bana le apni nai duniya…waqt ka kya bharosa ban ke paani bah jaaye, reh na jaaye baat baaki…Right here, Right Now..."

ps: U knw URS truly is a Virgo :-) & by experience URS truly suggests u that if a Virgo falls in luv with u, never let her go…bcoz probably no one can luv U as her…
Virgo is sign of pure love…which is either there for smone for eternity or not at all…

Chaos...

I was very busy in office on Tuesday. Forgot the track of time also in the evening. I had to reply to few mails, could reply to that also. After going home also, worked till 1:30am on the test plan.
Worked on it thru out the day, today also...Mailed it to my PM & team-mates for review.
Have to mail this to a cross-site Program Manager after review.
On top of it have been attending 3 hr long technical sessions evrday from last three days..its there on Thursday also

Everything is so confusing around me. It seems as if I am in the midst of some BIG chaos...
I am SAD...I dont want to write anything more than this...

Commotions...

Went to office on Saturday for an hour…Radhika also came, v initially planned to forget the world, go smwhere for shopping...Frm office v went to her house & none of us felt like going….
So, me & Radhika spent more than 3hrs on the terrace of the building…stayed wid her only at night…v were talking till 1:30am…after that lied down...was thinking smthing till late, then slept off don't know wen…On Sunday was at her place only till afternoon…then came back home…After I came, Kamyaa left wid her office friends to MG road…Sur slept off & I was roaming around from balcony to one room to another in our flat…smtimes switching TV channels...nothing appeared to be interesting also…

Couldn't sleep till 4:35am (may b was awake later than that...but it was the last wen I saw time in cellphone), & then got up at 7am, so hardly had 2hrs of sleep...had a training at 9am, so reached office around 8:30am..
Feeling low today, it was grandpa's death anniv…he always motivated me to study hard, be independent, have a strong will-power but never loose my gentle nature…I wish he was there today & could c that I m all on my own…he dint even c me complete my engineering…
We all used to call him 'dada'….'dada' I wont cry come wat may happen bcoz u always wanted to c me happy…I called up grandma in the evening...I dint wanted to say a word abt 'dada' but finally she said 'Sona, remember it is 6th Feb today...' But I wanna keep her happy & share happiness only wid her…so tried making her laugh by cracking jokes...I kept asking abt my younger cousins, so that her mind gets diverted…

There is smthing else also which is bothering me since Friday evening…my frnd told me his parents dint like the girl he selected frm matrimonial site after taking care abt caste, language etc…Today, he said, he wants to be alone & doesn’t want to talk to anyone…all this made me even more low…So, even I dint speak a word, but I think I shudn't hav done that…
I shud have gone directly to him & taken him for a walk around the campus in the evening…In fact, I shud hav spent weekend wid him…after all he himself says he shared all this wid me as I m his friend…& instead of being a bold friend, I got scared that he will get angry if I ask him to come out…
If he is practical, he himself won't keep any contact wid her & both of them shud look for sm new person in their life…

I hope he realizes that it hurts me also…even I m tense wen I see everyday that smone for whom I care is worrried as I m also human being…but I wanna keep it cool…won't disturb him…I will wait till he understands that friends feel better by sharing not by keeping quiet….
I will keep mum till he comes & talks himself…It pains to wait but its better than giving pains to a friend...

ps: Sorry to all the readers for writing serious post which is against my promise of spreading smiles thru my blog. Sorry! cudn't write happy sequence wen urs truly is sad... Its 1:05am at nite…shud sleep now to catch up on office tomrw...